1. I am starting the day, early AM, with nothing else to do but focus on ME. No distractions. The world can wait.
2. By starting the day with training, I am already setting a pattern for this day of what today will be about: focus and determination, using today in it's fullness to hit my goals.
3. I am saying that no part of this day will be wasted. I am taking advantage of the entire season of the day to take me that much closer to success.
4. There is a level of pain in getting up at 5am. But struggle brings strength. Overcoming pain makes me more disciplined and strengthens my resolve.
5. This morning I hit half of my workout regimen for the day. I am not rushed. I was able to take my time to make sure intensity was high as I entered each point.
6. If I wait until the evening and work out, then I am usually tired and mentally drained by the end of the day. At that point I am already mentally drained with stress, maybe had conflicts that came up. Then when I get home I naturally lack motivation, or motivation becomes a struggle to hit the entire workout with intensity. In the AM I am fresh.
CONFIDENCE: this morning's AM training session......I am feeling more and more comfortable with GHD situps. I am still getting the bad burning in my hamstrings and hips while doing them.
CONFIDENCE: I also did 3 rounds of 100 straight air squats without needing a break. Just find a pace and plow through them.
CONFIDENCE: HSPU kipping I feel comfortable hitting 10 straight pretty much anytime.
I am ambitious. There is no other way to be. Why should I settle for mediocre goals? Why should I believe that I will fail this time around? Just because I've failed before.
I can't tell you how many times I've lost a ton of weight, looked amazing, and a family member has come and put doubt in my mind saying, "ya but you'll gain it back." I love this person but fuck that. Before it's placed doubt in my mind. I believed what they said. It sank into me. It felt like a seed had been planted, a seed of destruction out to crush my goals and what I had worked so hard for. I felt it happen. I felt it. I knew what they said had a root and it would work. Their discouragement would become my reality.
This type of mental destruction cannot happen to me any longer. My mind must be iron clad. My mind IS iron clad. They do not have to believe in me. I believe in me. They may have seen the pattern of my past.......really.........the pattern of their own lives and their own failures and try to pass that onto me. But their words and doubting talk is like chatter.....like a gnat flying around my ear. Shew gnat! Means nothing. A gnat is nothing. Just an annoyance that I forget about 5 seconds later.
Pay attention to who supports you and who doesn't. Embrace those that do. Let them be in your corner. Ask them to be. Tell them about your goals. Be open and honest. Do not feel foolish. Do not be embarrassed to be vulnerable with them in your honesty of ambition. AND BE AMBITIOUS.
How do I know who to speak to? Only those people who have faith like you do, believe like you do, who will only build you up, never push you down, who will see an obstacle in your path and motivate you to climb over it, and someone who will pray with you, who can present you to God and pray for you. I may only have one person. If I have one, then that's all I need. But I need a support base.
And those people who are doubters and discouragers. I will not even share what I am up to. I will protect my dream. I will protect my goals. In fact the loftier they are the easier of a target it will be for them to knock them down, or try to. So protect my ambitious goals like it's a rare diamond. Only share that diamond with those who are supporting you.
At some point I will feel comfortable making statements of my goals to anyone. It doesn't matter if they are a doubter or not. But I will only share my struggles with those in my corner. Only they will know the intimacy of this walk. Only they will know the vulnerability. Because they will protect me in those hours and build me up.
I have formally asked a friend to be this person for me. It's interesting because I do feel vulnerable, and a little embarrassed, because this person knows me. Yet, I just made my cause even that much stronger.
"Tell me I cannot do it. I will prove you wrong. I will show you that you are mistaken, because I believe....and this is really important."
If I have the proper mindset, hearing that words "I can't" will make me that much more determined.
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